this week went really fast but also really slow

things i am hopefully getting for my birthday:

http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/Fuji-Polaroid-instax-mini-7s-instant-camera-30-films_W0QQitemZ170377025694QQcmdZViewItemQQptZUK_Photography_Film_Cameras_ET?hash=item27ab43189e#shId

and
http://www.amazon.co.uk/Sigh-No-More-Mumford-Sons/dp/B002PHYNRM/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&s=music&qid=1256378763&sr=1-2

the policy is you bring in cakes if it is your birthday at work, which is a strange arrangement, but there have been a lot of birthdays already and i have only been there 2 and a half weeks. October is definitely the month to be born in.

last night i went to worcester with rich, sophie, owen and laura. we played jenga and frustration in the Firefly and also went to Heroes. It was really good to see them cos i hadn't seen anyone apart from work people and my family for a week. i got really tired by about half 12 though, working a 40 hour week is so tiring. i am thinking about the money though, and thinking about Scandinavia.

I am wondering whether i want to work as a special needs assistant or teacher. I have applied for some work experience in January at some schools in Worcester, and at an organisation that helps young people with autism and at at the mental health and special needs place near the link station. as i think if i do decide to go back to university to do a masters i definitely need some work experience, especially if i want to do anything related to clinical psychology. i really am tired of all the rejection from jobs. so i think i need work experience and maybe more qualifications. also applying in a recession when there are not that many jobs hasn't helped.

i woke up really early this morning dreaming about sorting mouse mats! my first work related dream!! oh dear. but i wrote my work experience letter and looked at special needs training courses and ordered a prospectus. i am feeling a bit more positive at the moment, i just need to pick something to do and do it, and get through the next 7 weeks of a monotimous job to get out of my overdraft and go to Scandinavia. One of the good thing about working in a school is the holidays, my brother and sister have half term this week, so my sister has no school and my brother gets paid full pay for only working 9 hours. i woudl love a week off!! especially a paid week off! its X factor tonight, i really love it. shamelessly, its brilliant. I listen to the radio at work and there are quite a lot of good pop songs around at the moment. i need o get into some new music actually. i listen to Sigur Ros sometimes when i am sorting and i think if the people i work with listened to what i was listening to they would be like 'what on EARTH' is that. but it is one of the most beautiful things i have ever heard. only i understand a lot of people don't understand that.

seeing Sigur Ros was one of the most surreal moments of my life. it was completely unlike anything i have ever seen, the whole room was so full of people totally absorbed in the music, and they played behind a white sheet, which dropped in the final song at a dramatic point in the music, and a quartet of Icelandic girls who were the support act played with them, and afterwards we were all just jumping around on the way to the train station because the experience was just so incredible. those words i have used in that description sound so cliche and inadequate. maybe i am out of practice with writing, or the vague hangover is obscuring the good words from my memory. but it was the best live show i have ever seen, apart from Muse at Reading in 2006, but that was partially because i was intoxicated and had gone more than a bit manic anyway, telling everyone how happy i was all the time and just generally when i went a bit weird for a few months and musically Sigur Ros are more inspiring. so Sigur Ros win.