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robots, cheese, mine and jess' old books, castles, falling down stairs and off pavements, being unbelievabley terrible at pool, never having a proper job, spectacular views, people thinking i do a degree about how folding your arms means you are hostile, refinding old bands that i used to love, missing my old english class, getting through approximately a phone a month, walking on the hills, skip to the end tempremental stutters, oasis and vodka outside birmingham acadamy, getting unbelieveably paranoid of driving and thinking we are going to crash every ten seconds, wearing dresses 98.5% of the time, really regretting not going to a university by the sea, the absolute sheer genius that is SHAKEY'S, dictionary.com, only having one eye most of the time, having no strategy at chess and losing to queeg to my suprise, listening to music for at least half the day, working up the will to text back, making everyone i know obsessed with indian food, finding about as much money as i lose, loving living in malvern, wishing it was sunny enough for garden parties, neighbours, james may, board games in the orchard that summer, sleeping for 12 hours, wandering around with a blank expression looking like i have no idea what is going on, hanging around on the common like we used to when we were still at school, my window seat, mr roy, RACHMANANOV! feeling excited, making things for people, being grumpy when i am hungry, life being an unbelievable mismatch of extremes, spontaneous things, waking up on people's sofas and being made cups of tea, me vs. maradona vs. elvis, staring out of windows hmmmm yeah that has sort of defined me in an extremely lengthy paragraph.

What I do not say, but am always thinking, is the most important

I am leaving my hair curly as an experiment. It would grow so much more if I could learn to like it this way.

I have just walked back through Malvern at 7:30am on a Sunday morning as Arran is working this week doing labour work setting up tents for the Three Counties Show. This is fine, as it is a really nice sunny morning and it is good to be doing something with the day.

Last week I had an interview for an Admin Assistant at Worcester University, but i didn't get it as I couldn't work out how to use a database system which was one of the tasks, even though I followed the instructions correctly (or thought I did and tried everything I could do get it to work). There was a 30 minute series of tasks and then a 30 minute Interview, I think that the interview went alright but it seemed from hearing the next person to be interviewed talking in the waiting area that she was pretty much lined up for the job, also I mentioned that I didn't have any telephoning experience which is probably a fundamental component of the role so that was a bit stupid. Its OK though because I have an interview for a Psychology Research assistant this Wednesday, which would be amazing if I did get but I would be so lucky to get it that I am not getting my hopes up too much.

In other work news Malvern Special Families, the special needs playgroup charity that I work for is moving to Northliegh, my old primary school that is just down the road from me, which will save me an hour bus journey to and from the play group.

Anyway enough about work! I am very lucky because my brother has just gone to Australia for 6 weeks and my parents are giving him a bit of money to help him when they are there, so they said they would give me some too to make it fair which I am going to use to buy my Big Chill ticket :)

Yesterday I bought two nice new dresses as my all-purpose dresses that I can wear any time all have holes in as I have worn them so much and had them for so long.

I am also trying to get a bit healthier and drink a bit less, I had an Appletiser on Friday night when I went to Ollies and it was really nice and cheap and meant I was not hungover for work which is a win X 3.

I am working for Malvern Special Families and temping for The Three Counties at the moment, but I really want a full time job so I can sort myself out and move out with Laura sometime soon. Having said that I do like living at home, when my family are all getting on alright it is nice to be able to see my family on a regular basis, I am very preoccupied with thinking about how life is so short and so fragile and I appreciate being around my family, and now Arran has a nice new flat I don't feel so claustrophobic living at home. But still by the time I am 23 I would like to be a lot more independent.

I dreamt that my old university library was contained inside an enormous globe, that rolled instead of spun but was completely stationary inside

Things have changed a lot since october when i stopped myself writing things hear as they seemed quite sad and directionless. I like spring, I went for a walk with my Grandma today in the sun with my dog. I love the optimism you can't help feeling and after such a dark and cold winter the warmer weather is very welcome.

I am going to try and write more things down that have been happening, since I finished my quote of the day book when i finished university. I think it is important to write down the good times, because life can seem like such a blur, and it is so hard to remember all the nice things that have happened. I also just sneezed 10 times in row.